Does she keep lists

of things I've done wrong

in that new apartment

she asked me about

the credit listing

the foreclosure of our house

is that all

all that's left of what we have to say to each other

I keep lists

and I know everything I did wrong and all the lessons

I didn't learn

all the ways I never managed to grow up

caroline

the fucked up way I dealt with that

caroline

3 syllables and a song i used to like

crow on the cover

touching your knee

touching your knee

crying on your back

listening to you at jonas hole

back when I still might have had a change

just let it slide by

the last moment

nicole outside the window of that red corolla

just that moment

that exact, specific second

watching her crouch down

passenger side

not knowing what she'd say

just what I wanted

shooting pool

dive bar

dancing to purple haze

that's the high point

and it all went down from there

i should have kissed her

nicole, that is

dm

10/3/11